"Like a Meteor Smashing into My Backyard," original manga illustration by the author. 4 panels show a young woman observing a falling meteor and finally exploding her into space. Pinks, neon blues, and purples.

Recent Artwork August 2023

Crashing in every different direction, everywhere, all to once

🚨Content note: disturbing images, disturbing topics…

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“Calm Down” – tales of an autistic meltdown

Avatar detail from "Calm Down," digital illustration by Johnny Profane Âû. Closeup of a young boy's face during a meltdown. He wears a birthday hat and is standing on a park merry-go-round. In the background a peaceful scene of people walking dogs in a village park surrounded by trees. In a cubist collage style with dark tones an vibrant colors. Digital tools used include AI.
Avatar detail from “Calm Down,” digital illustration by Johnny Profane Âû.
Selfie detail from "Calm Down," digital illustration by Johnny Profane Âû. Closeup of a young boy's face during a meltdown. He wears a birthday hat and is standing on a park merry-go-round. In the background a peaceful scene of people walking dogs in a village park surrounded by trees. In a cubist collage style with dark tones an vibrant colors. Digital tools used include AI.
Selfie detail from “Calm Down,” digital illustration by Johnny Profane Âû.
"Calm Down," digital tableau by Johnny Profane Âû. Closeup of a young boy's face during a meltdown. He wears a birthday hat and is standing on a park merry-go-round. In the background a peaceful scene of people walking dogs in a village park surrounded by trees. In a cubist collage style with dark tones an vibrant colors. Digital tools used include AI.
“Calm Down,” digital tableau by Johnny Profane Âû.

“If You Meet a Saint Along the Road” – they always just want to help you

"If You Meet a Saint along the Road," original image by the author. In a surreal cubist collage, a female saint holds up her hand as another hand reaches around her throat. In the background crows, gas masks, syringe, pills, school bell, objects of control.
“If You Meet a Saint Along the Road,” original image by the author.

“Neurodivergent Kiss” – not about sex, gender, class, or status

Detail from "Neurodivergent Kiss," original digital illustration by author. A non-gendered, indeterminate-race, humanoid couple kisses in the center of a surreal cubist tableau with elements of brain hemispheres, stars, other icons of power, genius, difference, & love.
Detail from “Neurodivergent Kiss,” original digital illustration by author.
Detail from "Neurodivergent Kiss," original digital illustration by author. A non-gendered, indeterminate-race, humanoid couple kisses in the center of a surreal cubist tableau with elements of brain hemispheres, stars, other icons of power, genius, difference, & love.
Detail from “Neurodivergent Kiss,” original digital illustration by author.
"Neurodivergent Kiss," original digital tsbleau by author. A non-gendered, indeterminate-race, humanoid couple kisses in the center of a surreal cubist tableau with elements of brain hemispheres, stars, other icons of power, genius, difference, & love.
“Neurodivergent Kiss,” original digital tableau by author.

“Like a Meteor Smashing into My Backyard” – autistic love’s like that…

"Like a Meteor Smashing into My Backyard," original manga illustration by the author. 4 panels show a young woman observing a falling meteor and finally exploding her into space. Pinks, neon blues, and purples.
“Like a Meteor Smashing into My Backyard,” original manga illustration by the author.

All images are availble for reproduction up to movie poster size to all paid subscribers.

NOTE: For folks who follow me and know of my recent illness, I’m on the mend. But far from my usual. As they dial in the meds, it’s getting easier. I managed to put in 8 days straight working…

In a way, I’ve been rehearsing for this my whole life… I know from recovering after dozens of autistic burnouts. This trip has been just a great deal worse.

I don’t see longer, more detailed posts, podcasts, or videos in my immediate future. I gotta start from where I am.

So, so far some of my imagistic thoughts have begun to grab me, demanding they find a voice. Hence the stabs at poetry and wordy social media posts. Next up, like true command voices they demand to see themselves… hence, my posted artwork of late. Now they’re really pushing me… so I’m squeaking out a few short threads.

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Portrait of the author as an old man.

Let’s see where this goes?

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