When the fog of meltdown comes on, I can’t think of what to do in that moment… to just deal….
So I made a little list…
Category: Accomodating
Autistic joy is hard to explain to another person. Pretty much ANY non-autistic person.
And trying to… drags me into Deep Philosophical Waters…
When I experience a meltdown, whether it manifests as panic attack, “autistic rage,” or shutting down…
For a while, the “me” I’m accustomed to being… disappears.
My apologies. I write like a 50s movie voiceover stuck in the wrong century.
But I’m desperately trying to tell you something…
I have difficulty communicating… back & forth in a written conversation. Just as much, maybe worse, as I do face to face…
Why, oh WHY, does their Theory of Mind CONVINCE them, despite all my assurances, that my Resting Bitch Face more accurately portrays my inner being than…
My plain, spoken English…?
“Are you okay? Are you okay? ARE YOU OKAY?”
Like they’re talking to a Japanese tourist, and if they just shout loud enough… he’ll understand English…
Just remember, everything I’m about to tell you is a CRIME.…
