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Anxiety Autism Meltdowns Opinion Safety Surviving Symptoms

I’m Autistic. I Fear Cops….

I fear every police officer & cop car I see.
And in 21st Century America… I see them everywhere.

So I bought a Medical Alert Bracelet. To protect myself from “helping” First Responders…

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About Autism Opinion Self-Doubt Symptoms

Autistic Self-Doubt: A brief, very personal post.

I’ve been struggling with some self-doubt.

It’s an autism thang.

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Autism Opinion Symptoms

50 Shades of Autistic Thinking, Pt. 1: Magic is Afoot…

I begin a series exploring how my autistic mind works…

Cuz if we don’t show ’em our hearts…. How will they ever love us?

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#AutisticJoy Adult Autism Masking Symptoms Top Articles ⭐

Autistic Masking as Performance Art

I’ve come to enjoy the sound of my own voice…

Understanding how & why takes me stumbling down a deep rabbit hole…

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Anxiety Autism Symptoms

What My Autism Looks Like… Right NOW.

Can’t wrap my head around it. Not this moment in history… Not this moment in my life…

Not this  m o m e n t

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Autism in Poetry: Sensory Overload, NOISE…

No apology. No justification. No lecture. No discussion. No education. No enlightenment…

Here’s the experience  of autistic sensory overload.

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Accomodating Anxiety Autism Meltdowns Shutdowns Symptoms

Managing My Autism… A Personal Panic List

When the fog of meltdown comes on, I can’t think of what to do in that moment… to just deal….

So I made a little list…

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Accomodating Autism Communication Special Interests Symptoms Theory of Mind

On Autism, Personality & Being in the Flow…

Autistic joy is hard to explain to another person. Pretty much ANY non-autistic person.

And trying to… drags me into Deep Philosophical Waters…

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Autism Special Interests Special Interests (SpIns) Symptoms

Special Interests? Autistic Passion Ain’t Cute & Cuddly

The issue isn’t age, education, or IQ… Autistics vary just like neurotypical humans…

But intensity…? We got that covered like stink on shiznit.

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Autism Symptoms

Inside Autism & Eye Contact: How It Feels

If you knew if you pushed a button, you gave a child electroshocks… Would you? Could you…? How eye contact feels to this autistic…

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Accomodating Aspergers Autism Meltdowns Parenting Symptoms Top Articles ⭐

Inside an Autistic Meltdown… I  D i s a p  p  e   a   r    . . .

When I experience a meltdown, whether it manifests as panic attack, “autistic rage,” or shutting down…

For a while, the “me” I’m accustomed to being… disappears.

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Autism Communication Verbal Symptoms

Autistic Selective Mutism: Pt. 2, A Few More Unspoken Thoughts

Being on the inside of selective mutism, not being certain I’m explaining it clearly…

Really screws with my head.

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Accomodating Autism Autobiography Communication Symptoms Theory of Mind

#Neurotypicals? Know What This #ActuallyAutistic REALLY Hates About Em…?

Why, oh WHY, does their Theory of Mind CONVINCE them, despite all my assurances, that my Resting Bitch Face more accurately portrays my inner being than…

My plain, spoken English…?

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Selective Mutism, Pt. 1: I Have No Mouth. But I Must SCREAM…

“Are you okay? Are you okay? ARE YOU OKAY?”

Like they’re talking to a Japanese tourist, and if they just shout loud enough… he’ll understand English…

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Microdose & Me – Autism On Psychedelics

Just remember, everything I’m about to tell you is a CRIME.…

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How to Get Diagnosed #ActuallyAutistic in Just 26 Years

Every therapy, every diagnosis, every medication– burnout, meltdowns, marriages, careers, shutdowns, and then there was clarity with a late diagnosis of autism.

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Anxiety Aspergers Aspie Autobiography Memory Symptoms

Confessions of an #AdultAutistic Anxiety Junkie

To cope with the increasingly more complicated demands of #AdultAutistic life, Johnny Profane has relied on the adrenaline rush of fear and anxiety to push him into action and get his mind in gear.